My Plus-Sized Boudoir Portrait Session Experience
We all have our perceived flaws. You know, those flaws that you're convinced everyone else sees and judges you on even more harshly than you do yourself. Seriously though, you are your own worst critic and no one else even notices those perceived flaws that plague you.
There was a time that I didn’t think I was pretty. I thought it was a fluke that I took beautiful photos twice in my life. The first time was the day I sat for my senior portraits and the second time was on my wedding day. However, about 15 years ago I started wondering if I was pretty twice, maybe I'm missing something on the other days. I even went so far as to ask the guy I was dating what he saw in me. It took some time, but I started to see that it wasn't just a fluke on those two days. Ultimately, I was severely lacking in self confidence and with time and inner work my self confidence improved.
So, fast forward to present day...You may notice that I post a lot about self confidence and positive body image. Well even though I’ve come a long way in accepting my body, I still have my moments. So, those posts are as much for me as they are for you. A little reminder never hurts anyone, right?!
These are just a couple mid portrait session selfies I took in the changing room.
Who Doesn't Have Perceived Flaws...
As a bigger girl, I have a long list of perceived flaws, and like many of you, some days I struggle with accepting those flaws. If you’ve known me or looked back through my images, you can tell that I’ve put on weight over the last couple of years. Confidence can definitely sway back and forth with the scale's needle and I didn’t want to sit back and let my self confidence slip away because of it. So, I felt I needed to experience my very own boudoir photoshoot. Maybe that’s a drastic step, but if I can be at my heaviest weight and still accept my body and acknowledge that I still look beautiful and sexy, it’s exactly what I need!
Not only did I expect to experience the self confidence boost, but I also wanted to fully understand the wide range of emotions my clients go through before they experience their own boudoir session. I mean seriously, a boudoir photo session requires a moderate level of vulnerability! I remained clothed throughout the session, but it was definitely a step outside of my comfort zone!! My idea of being comfortable is jeans and a T-shirt, so to strut around in skin tight lingerie, lace robes, or a bra and sexy panties seemed scary to say the least!! That being said, the nerves, fear, and anxiety was quickly squashed. I never once felt self conscious, inferior because of my weight or imperfect in any way!!
Not only did I feel high on self acceptance and self love, but my heart was full because I know this is how my clients feel and I am so grateful to be part of their transformation! I’ve witnessed my clients go from nervous, reluctant, and self conscious to uninhibited, confident, free and aware of their beauty. If I asked her, I'm sure she would say the same thing about me!
Needless to say, experiencing my very own boudoir session was an absolutely memorable and valuable experience for me! I realized that all the fears, anxiety, stress, and feelings of inadequacy that I had leading up to the experience were all in my head. Once I was there and actually in the moment, it was a beautiful, self loving experience! Plus, it was an invaluable learning experience from a business standpoint, but I won’t bore you with the business aspects. All I will say was that it was 1000% worth it!! I truly wish every woman would experience a boudoir portrait session! You'll finally get to see yourself the way your significant other sees you. You'll reconnect with the self confidence you’ve been missing and it'll help you accept yourself as is and find self love.